During my time in AMORC, at the height of my deepest conditioning, which dovetailed with the time I reached these more “advanced” experiments, I experienced a great deal of dissociation from real life. This was characterized by an obsessive repetition and rereading of the monographs, continual work on breathing and chanting and continual and futile efforts at visualization. This resulted in head aches, spurts of irrational but profound anger at AMORC,  dizziness, loss of clarity, forgetfulness and even blackouts.

This is what happens when one forsakes commonsense, kindness and rationality for the sake of a higher, indemonstrable world controlled by Invisible Beings, which you believe in, but which you can only contact effectively when thoroughly hypnotically conditioned.

Although there are Lodges to attend every week, the fact is that I- like many other members- are basically alone, uneducated in the ways of Mind Control or hypnosis, influenced mainly by tracts making enormous claims about the nature of the universe and the place you belong in it- totally vulnerable to the mandates of these monographs and the Invisible World they claim to be your legacy.

Also see, ON THE PRECIPICE OF CONTRADICTION.